" Hokage's Funeral"- Toshiro Umezawa

IF you ever hear this song you'll understand how I feel right now. Lighthearted yet sad and lonely, theres nobody up here I know and although I told Jess I was going to come up and forget her, all of my memories from this past year are with her. Does that mean that I can't move on? or if I can how long will it take? I feel like I lost a year of my life and I don't know if it was worth it or not, I don't know how much of what we had was real, the lies we told have clouded everything, not to mention all the mixed signals I got from her at the end. I hope she doesn't read this I need to be stronger than this but unfortunately this is my only outsource. I need some companionship, I know how she solved that problem and I feel bad for Jerry because hes caught in the middle with a girl he never really gave up on, sound familiar? He's not going to last long not nearly as long as I did, at the end of the summer they're going to break up again because Jess can't commit, not yet anyway. I just hope I'm over her by then because I don't want to get caught by her again. My guess is that she'll go for Truit next though, sorry Truit I know how you feel. I work tonight from 3-1130 PM I hope to meet a nice girl up here not even for a relationship just a friend would be nice. Next time- "sadness and Sorrow"