Am I a total Copout?

"I am a mirror, I show a reflection. Reflections are just that, not
what i want but what is a lot of the time. I don't like showing
hurtful things or not being able to help. Thats why i try to show good
as well as bad. I am not the best when it comes to tact, I am sorry
for my fault but not even a mirror is perfect. I try not to make
excuses for myself, i feel im doing it now. I hope you will still
consider me to be a friend when you wake up tomorrow, but i know that
somethings said can not be forgotten or unsaid. Those are written
across the history that is my life. I will always tell the truth to
you and if i come across harsh I may not mean it. Sometimes though you
dont need to be buttered up you need tough love. People open up to me
because they see themselves in me, their insecurities and their
faults, not the greatest reason but there it is.And i inturn realize
this and so dont judge when they do open up.All of us make mistakes.
To be honest, I think you need time from me and need to get out there
and make friends with some people( females). I know its hard for you
but there is my opinion. So assuming that you read this and didnt just
delete it like you might, I am sorry for hurting your feelings. try
not to hate me, please." I emailed this to Jess after being a huge ass, I feel like im cheating but it's true. I mean everything i said, It would be easier if I didnt care, bt I can't just abandon her, not when she needs me to be there for her. please someone respond to me.