The first among many

okay so Ive been thinking about getting one of these for a while since I can't talk to alot of people and those I can talk to I dont want to burden. I mightas well start with the stress. Im stressed, big surprise huh? Now adays It seems Im always stressed work school family and yes that means you too Jess. Speaking of which I love you. I know youre still mad at me even if you deny it and I cant blame you at all. you have no Idea how bad it hurts to see you unhappy or in pain. I know I caused that pain and that hurtseven worse because that wont go away ever. The fact that I am the cause will always kill me inside. I am currently debating when I should tell you about this. you dont need anything else on your plate. You broke down and cried on my shoulder today, part of me wishes you would do that more. not the crying but reaching out to me and sharing. I like to feel that you need me and I like making you feel better. I wish I could take some of your workload from you but I cant and I know this. it still urts though. I see all of the things that you are going through and dealing with and fell proud and honored that someone so strong would choose me with all of my flaws. enough moping I have to eat and put on my fake smile to try and help you.I dont know if it will work though. sometimes it does.