To those who knew me.

IVe had one hell of a week. My grades arent good so im grounded, my girlfriend is pissed at me, I just gave away my cat, my room is a hollow shell of what it once was and, and to top it off my girlfriend tols me yesterday that she was flirting with Truit again.Only this time she told him she had a crush on him.It's times like these when I wish I could just not care. My girlfriend loves me , I know that. I adore her though, I dont look at other girls and when I fantasize it's about her and no other. I love her so much that I cant be angry at how shes feeling but I die that shes feeling this way and I feel betrayed by her apparent lack of faith.part of me feels like shes not ready for me yet but I cant let her go. If im just being selfish I would like to know. Im not upset anymore, I wrote her kind of an angry letter last night and im not quite sure Im going to giv it to her yet. I dont want to hurt her and my being upset and dissapointed hurts her and I know that.We only seem to have troubles when other people get involved. Maybe she just hasnt given herself to me completely yet. If thats the case I can be patien, if she doesnt love enough yet I can wait for that too. I feel like we can work out anything given time but our times running out. I leave in little overtwo months. I move to palmer in two weeks. It might not be so hard if she was little more open with me.God I love her. Jessica i love you.