Come what may.

I called Jess the other day and the first thing that i noticed was that she seemed panicked and out of sorts. Se asked if i had called earlier and was in a rush to get her words out. It turns out that she was in a relatively minor accident thank God and her car was pretty trashed. She was alright though and was just in the need of some down time to calm down.When i was talking to her i realized that my first insinct was to treat her as if i was still dating her. This was obviously the wrong thing to do, idont know if she noticed but, i did and that was enough. I asked her if she had acalled Jerry yet and she said he was on his way and something hit me; she doesnt need me anymore. i have served my role i her life in the way i was needed, now i have the option of stepping aside completely and going forward, or i can remain by her side if only in a different role. I know we are through, i accept that for the most of me and even though i wish it had been different in the end i realize on many levels that what had seemed perfect at times was just because i was blinded to our many insecurities. i believe that she saw many of those throughout our relationship, and dealt with them in the best wa she knew how. I choose now and every day hereafter to remain her friend, what i felt for her was love i know it to be fact, and i cannot fault her for her feelings, but i can be with her as a friend and as a companion when i am needed. in terms of love i hope she can find somebody who is my superior in all things and someone who will not merely bow to her. she is a strong woman who needs a strong man to be her equal. she does not need someone to babysit like she did with me, she needs someone who can take care of themselves and lend a hand to her when she is in over her head. i hope she finds all of that and more in whom ever she decides to bestow that great honor. She is the second strongest i know.