Sincerely Frustrated

Im a little upset with myself right now, I cant seem to get past the hurt that I feel a good portion of the time. Im trying day after day it just never seems to lessen or go away. I know that its not fair to them or to me but my heart does not seem to care too much about fair and such. I want to be friends but a large part of me just wants this whole thing to be nothing more than a bad dream, and for me to wake up and be where I felt I belonged. I dont feel entirely comfortable expressing myself on this post which is a little wrong or in anyone up here but I need to find a way of doing so in a reliable manner. I need some one I can trust. We all know how hard that is for me. So for now Im going to call it a night as I have work in a few hours. "Sleep well and wake."